It has been such a long time since I have been awake before 8am. I know, I know. Everyone with a real job hates me right now. It’s not that I’m extremely lazy: I did spend many years of my life (including four in college) waking up before most people hit their REM sleep (life of a swimmer).
But here I am, Friday the 13th and I got up at 7am! And although I miss being in my bed with Kelly Live!, I can already feel the productivity flowing through my bloodstream. One appointment out-of-the-way early and hopefully a long list of “to-dos” to cross off before work tonight. But right now I’m just enjoying some Starbucks as I get back on the blogging trail. So sorry for the absence–my mind has been soaring elsewhere recently.
Decision making stresses me out. Especially when it’s for something that I consider a “life change.” I am someone who can see both sides of situations and find myself easily placed on either side of an issue. This can be a good thing in some instances, as I can easily adapt to situations, but also a bad one when trying to make a decision. I usually end up making decisions based on passion since I can argue either side til the window for an answer is closed. That’s how I ended up in France. I thought it all out logically first. I was so scared to miss out on finding a job after graduation but also knew the opportunity to travel was important to me and might not be open again. I was nervous that the family would not mesh with me and on the other side I thought, what if I meet my husband! (this didn’t happen) Notice the meticulous bouncing back and forth. Negative to positive to negative. So I ended up just going for the move to France. I turned off the negative brain waves (my career as a swimmer actually trained me in this skill) and dove (no swimmer pun intended) for the chance at something new.
And you know what? It was the best thing I ever did!
Knowing this about myself you would think that the next big decision might not be so difficult. Not the case. I again found myself weighing both sides of a life changing situation and meddling on the possible negative outcomes. When I finally was stressed, nauseous and upset over it all I slapped myself in the face (not really) and just told myself to GO WITH IT!
So decision made: I am moving to NYC for the month of February and seeing how it goes. A trial run if you will. Next month I hope to get some temp work, try to network into a real job (one where I will most definitely be waking before 9) and find a place to live. Everyone has to do it once right; a New York adventure. I am so excited–when I’m not thinking of the money I’ll be spending and the possibility that things might not work out…. (TURN OFF THE NEGATIVITY)